1st Trimester
Mood:  irritated
Now Playing: Something on TV
Topic: Memories
Dying, I'm dying. Or atleast I feel like it. This first trimester pregnancy thing isn't all that beautiful fairy-tale stuff. Let me tell you. I have constant head aches, can't take anything. I have nasua constantly! And vomitting. Not to mention the vaginal pains. I feel like I'm dying. And all the exhaustion. I'm constantly tired. I could sleep for days straight. And the embarassment of almost puking in class is almost too much to bare. This little baby better know I love it more than anything because I'm going through *You know what* to get it here lol.
~~I can't wait to feel 16 hours of labor pains and know that I never have to go through this first trimester for a long time, or possibly ever again.
But in the end it'll all be worth it. I know that. But goodness! I've got it bad ......

Hearing your heart beat
Mood:  spacey
Now Playing: Cartoons
Topic: Prenatal Visits
So like OMG! I got up this morning and felt wonderful. I got up a little too early though. Me and mom decided to leave at like 9. Well I woke up at like 5 am. lol. Bout right. But I didn't feel sick like I had been, so I was in a good mood.
~After finding something to wear I went and got in the shower. And man it was a good shower. Not a rushed one like I take when I'm late for school. So as soon as it was over I put my hair up in a towel and no sooner than I raised my head up to get my other towel I was down on my knees. It was like someone turned a water hose on in my stomach. That pickle I ate the night before wasn't too good comming up. I couldn't breathe. I didn't think it would ever stop, but it did.
~We barely found the doctors office in Somerset. But we finally did. I read all those Parent magazines in the waiting room. I went in for all that routine woman stuff, and the doctor talked to me for a few minutes. I really liked her. Then it was time to go to the ultra sound room. I thought I was like 5 weeks. We got in there and she was looking for the cists on my ovaries. But the big one was gone. It was a miracle. *Thanks to all the prayers of my friends and family* And while I was laying there she said, you look like you're about 6 and half weeks, and I jumped up and I was like "You can see my baby!?!" And she turned the monitor around, and it was the most beautiful white scratchy dot I've ever saw. I could see it's heart beating. It was a little flicker. And she turned on the audio and we could hear it's heart beat. Barely, but we could hear it! Me and mom broke down. It was wonderful. I got pictures of it. Can't really tell much about it. But to my baby: I already know you, and I love you more than anything.

Dealing With it
Mood:  hug me
Now Playing: MTV
Topic: Memories
Well, I started suspecting that I was pregnant. My surgery is the day after tomorrow and I'm 2 weeks late. So I sucked it up and bought 2 tests. I was on my way to Laceys house, so I just decided to go ahead and take them there.
The first one said pregnant.... took another one.... it said pregnant.
I called mom, I was upset. Shocked, all that. Mom was okay with it. But the tests are weird so we decided when I came home we'd get another one just in case.
When I got home I showed the tests to mom and we called Teresa to come up. Me and Teresa went to Wal-Mart to get another test while mom told dad what was up. He didn't act anything like I thought he would.
So when we got back I took the test. This one was digital and easier to read. It read "Pregnant". I cried ofcourse. I wasn't mad, or sad. I was just shocked. It was very unexpected.
After a few hours of talking, and everyone reassuring me that everything will be fine, I started getting the baby fever and getting excited.